Jennifer Lynn =]

Well i don't have long to type, i have stuff in my room to be done,so that i can lay new carpet! lolz. =] Im going to be back into my room soon.. Okay..well last night me & heather went to meet  Jon at the mall, We had 2 pick something up, anyways and then he came with us to Heather's because i had 2 dye her hair.... As she was washing her hair out, me and him were talking, and i was like laying on him because i was so freaking tired i just wanted to sleep...But to make a long story SHORT..Me and Jon are now together. =] I was so freaking happy, i don't think anyone even understands how much i like this kid. he's so sweet and he's different. and when i say that i really mean it... Even tho Ne-Ne told me not to date people i work with, i can't help it.. lolz...... 

ANYWAYS.....Today was an alright day, didn't do anything at work came in at 7, about 8 me and Lorraine (my mgr) went to break, sat there till about 9..She punched out for lunch, and we sat there more..and about 9:30 she punches back in,we are about to actually do some work, And this lady askes us to go get garbage can's from hardware because today was the BBQ and we needed to put the drinks in something.So we go get them and then when we bring then to the back we have to go get ice for them lol...so how it's like 10:30 and we arent doing anything besides walking around. lol. So as we go to go back to work she asks us to continue helping her, so we did obviously and next thing i know me and my mgr are cookin on the grill and having a good ol' time while people are actually working.. LoL....So then we continue helping till about 12 when i went to lunch and she went home about 12:30. So when i came back at 1 i actually did some work till 4 then came home... When i get home i realize that inorder for me to put my carpet downi have to scrape dirt off the floor from the flood..*FUN FUN* =] while im doing that my charming brother is diong what??? putting down grass seed!!! lolz i swear my family is confused.. haha neways dogs barking and i have to vacuume. =]  byez!!!

*LaTaZ*

Alright so i was really cranky today because this kid that i like was being an asshole and he says he likes me but i mean it's hard to believe because when he doesnt realize im around he was giving out his phone number to this whore who works with us.  i probably shouldn't be mad because we arent together but i am because i like him alot and wanna be with him i mean i was talking to him but couldn't tell him why i was mad at him, im afraid that he doesnt like me like everyone says he does.. But what i don't freaking understand is that if he "likes" me why would he wanna be getting other peoples phone numbers but then when he sees me hide the phone like im fucking stupid. I personally don't think he likes me theres nothing to like about me i fat and ugly and i dont care how many times people say im not, its how i feel and its my opinion and it's about myself i can say whatever i want..... i just dont know what to do anymore, but im giving up on him i know he doesnt like me and doesnt wanna go out with me so yeah im oka with that now.. i'll soon get over him
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well i just made this journal. My main idea for making this journal is because i have things i need to get out, and i don't think i can get my feelings out through myspace or just on paper. Im a little bit stressed out right now, because i was dating this guy mike, who at the time seemed really sweet like he really wanted to be with me. When we hung out he made me feel wanted and made me feel like he wanted me around him. But as the days went on and i started getting a migrain because of the drama he caused me i then realized everything he has said to me was a lie. he always accused me of cheating, come to find out he was really cheating on me with this girl that "broke up with him". He was the kind of person who seemed like he was very trustworthy in the beginning. Mike and i weren't together long and i look back on the what he called a relationship now and i think about everything he had said to me about me being a cunt (sorry nene) and being a self centered bitch i really didnt need him. Mike would never let me do anything unless he was coming with me or unless i was talking to him 24/7 on the phone. If i texted him instead of calling i would be told that i was cheating..if i called at 8:35 instead of 8:30 i was cheating It actually came down to i couldn't even go to work without him thinking i was cheating or doing something wrong. When we hungout one night we were sitting in his car in his drive way it was raining, and we were drinking a beer relaxing and just talking about some shit that was going on. My phone rang and at the time it was a new phone and i didnt have anyones  numbers in the phone it was my mother and i didnt feel like picking up because me nd her had had a fight and i was still mad so i ignored the call,i then got accused of cheating and that was my other boyfriend, to prove that i wasnt lieing when my mother had called back i picked up and i said "HEY MOM" and he said im still lieing my friends know to go along with that. I was like umm okay you can call her. and it really was my mother. So whatever we are fighting about that so i said im going to leave, he then got mad at me because i was leaving because i was tired and it was raining and i hate driving in the rain. He told me it's weird how i ignore my calls and as soon as my phone rings i want to leave. Come to find out the reason he was getting mad that i was ignoring my phone calls was becasue when he was ignoring his it was because it was his other gurl friend. But anyways when i left his house he then followed me drunk off his ass driving up really close to me and trying to push my car off storm king mtn.  The next day i was sleeping, and i didnt hear my phone so he leaves me a voice mail asking me why im not picking up and who im fuckin. umm excuse me i was sleeping. He told me that im a stupid fucking bitch and i need to be shot because when someone calls me i have to pick up my phone, i shouldn't ignore a phone call because it's a bad sign. which i know that but i was sleeping.. Anyways so yeah now he's telling me he always loved me and never cheated on me.. 
Well tell me what you think!! 

-Jenn